Sometimes i dont think i think things through....the mental impact or toll my plans for a day talks on my mental health.
In summary im guessing my awake because im stressed about the day ahead of me. Thanks to alexithymia tho im not exactly clear what im feeling right now just a sense of panic and an urge to self sabotage in some shape or form be it self harm or something.
I cant stand being awake in the dark hours its my worse time.
I know im repeating myself now bit i dont like meeting new people, i dont know what to expect, to they dont know me or how my brain works its exhausting ill spend days trying to process it all.
And as for meetings with multiple people its like getting called the head teachers office and being scared to put a foot wrong.
I dunno what to do right now i might just cancel my care coordinator this morning and say its too much pressure for me in one day...but i never cancel or let anyone down.
Well went for a walk that was a bad idea disassociated whilst I was out so much for regulating myself!
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