So today started no so great, the weather here has been horrible rainy and windy. I went out for my morning fag with my umbrella but it was windy, so i tilted it - so it didnt go inside out. I didnt see my neighbour coming and ask she walked past she made a comment " fuck off then im not talking to you ". This hurt cos im always polite to my neighbours but i didnt see her i replied a cheery " hi" as she walked passed. I then stressed about putting a note in her door explaining why i tilted my umbrella and i didnt see her. Then i realised it was her issue not mine she was the one that was rude, so i decided to let it go.
I then had a really good call with the autism OT it was good to let out my concerns and have help making a plan for the future to help me if i get too burnt out and to track my mood coming up to my period where my impulsivity is concerned. Also to get an alternative to block out the noise in the hospital for when my headphones and phone need charging. So i feel a bit more comfortable and equipped to deal with burn out and not so petrified of it.
Then i had a positive phone call with my nutritionist saying it sounds like im learning a lot about myself and its great its putting me in a better space to deal with the year ahead - its still a scary prospect for me but its good that others can see the effort that im putting into understand myself better. Shes not putting pressure on me to eat which is good cos i had a really bad eating disorder in the past. I plan to try and get myself back to eating regularly as my hospital stay knocked me off track cos there wasnt my safe foods.
I had my mum round which was ok she made some comments like your laundry piles getting bigger, but i didnt take it as a dig i just thought to myself at least im doing laundry it could be worse.
I went into the local town had a chat with some friends and one got me my fave spearmint polos that was lovely that she thought of me.
Came home with tons of energy for a change so put my fave songs on my alexa instead of the tv. Cleaned out my rabbits, hoovered, folding up more laundry, took out the rubbish and cleaned up a bit.
Actually fed myself a veggie omelette tried in air fryer didnt go to plan so ended up using the microwave to finish it off.
Went for a long walk after listening to an adhd podcast of epic fails which was quite amusing.
Now i think its time for meds and bed for me hopefully tomorrow is as fulfilling as today has been.
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