So i cancelled an appointment for the first time in my life today. I did it via text to my new care coordinator, then persisted to worry about what first impressions that gave her of me. But at the end of the day i did it for all the right reasons i was getting so burnt out. I had the opportunity to cancel this evenings appointment but thought it would mean another night up stressing about it. So went ahead with it.
Was running out the door this morning forgot my loops, headphones and put on the wrong coat so had nothing in my pockets. Was almost late to the nurse for my stitches, which she was 20 minutes late by which time i was suffering complete sensory overload, and snappy as hell. She kept saying your operation i was like ive told you three times i didnt have an operation. She didnt apologise for being late she was an old lady wearing furry slippers. In my head im thinking your not at home! Anyway i got told i cant take out your stitches your wounds still to wide im gonna put steri strips on they look like this to which i snapped i know what they look like, she just put a dressing on it. Then ADHD me walks out the surgery without booking the follow up appointment. I wasnt going to go home straight away but by this time i was like everythings already gone wrong. I really needed my headphones to survive the rest of the day and realised id forgotten my morning meds, so i popped back home.
On the way home i spotted mum driving towards me, she hadnt called me first so she just had to go home again as i was just collecting my stuff to go back out.
Got everything folded laundry put laundry in tumble dryer and then went to costa for lunch.
Went to the recovery cafe for international womens day activities which was basically games. And then the dreaded meeting that wasnt that bad.
Now on the way back home had two buses terminate early on me so had to walk, now to chill out and hopefully get some decent sleep.
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